Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Rolling in the Deep

So, you're going about your day as usual.
And then, BAM.
It hits you like a brick.
"Man. I'm so not happy with who I've been lately."
This happened to me a few days ago.  That not-so-subtle feeling that you're just not the person you know you should be.
For me, it came in the form of a sinking feeling in my stomach. That guilty feeling.
Sometimes, I get so caught up in feeling sorry for myself. Or focusing on negativity. Or competition- that I begin to lose the person that I know I am.
Ever have those days?
I made an executive decision to get things back the way they need to be.
Choosing to make "my" time, God time.
Verbally telling my Husband how amazing he is.
Doing that pile of laundry lurking in the corner.
Revelling in someone else's joy.
Accepting this, that & everything else.


Courtney said...

Hi Manda! I totally know what you mean. I had something similar happen to me a couple of months ago. I hated where my life was going. I felt awful and that I was lost somewhere. I managed to pull my self out of the funk and made some great changes. Since then, things have been great! Keep on Keepin'on girl!


Sam said...

Oh boy do I know how you feel! I know there are plenty of times on a daily basis where I say or do something that I know isn't me, or is maybe a bit unfriendly as an attempt at funny, and at the end of the day (in fact, it's usually right after I make the comment) I feel like crap about it.

Thanks for inviting us all to take a step back and reevaluate. :)

jillian at faith that laughs. said...

I hear ya girl! I have those rough days too. Thank you for sharing your heart. It always comforting to know other women struggle with the same issues. xoxo

Elle said...

Been there! I appreciate such an honest post. Hope you get back to where you want to be

carolyn bradford said...

Beautiful post, Manda! Trust me, we all go through these feelings and emotions at every stage in our life! Your outlook is wonderful and I'm so glad you told your husband he is wonderful and that you did those every day things that make up what our days….that is eventually what makes up our lives! It is so easy for me to feel sorry for myself…but then I really don't like that side of me! And I know full well that God is not happy when I do that…therefore, I feel that pull to serve Him and be the wife, mother, woman, friend, etc…that He wants me to be! That ultimately makes me fulfilled!

Lesley said...

yes! i was in such a lazy mood this week that we haven't done much. and i know my 1 year old could care less... but i apologized to her today for being lazy (even though she had no idea what i was talking about) and then we went to the park.

Kayla Peveler said...

This post was amazing. So many times I feel this way. Making "me" time, "God time" is a necessity. Thank you for your honesty, miss!

Just stumbled across your blog from Jillian up there, its great!

New follower :)